Embracing Naptime

If you are a mom you heart the words naptime

These words mean you can:

grab a shower
a nap yourself
clean your house
fold laundry
do your hair
make your bed
 clean up cheerios and strawberries from breakfast
call a friend
brush your teeth
etc.

It is an hour...sometimes more when you can "get things done"

or at least that is what I do...

You could say it is the light at the end of the tunnel
because you know that when your sweet one wakes he/she will be rested and much happier

Somedays they just dont happen and those are days that I end up on my knees

Weston desperately needs rest and so does mommy

This past year, my first year as a mother I have learned more than the past twenty three years all combined

I have learned a lot about grace

a whole lot about vanity

a lot about breast feeding, making your own baby food and taking rectal temperatures

and i have learned

just

how

little

I

am

in

control

but most importantly

I have learned

Just

how

much

God

IS

IN

CONTROL

I have learned that nothing I do can control the well being of my son and husband

Not a thing

I can take care of them and love them deeply, but God's business is God's business

We are not to question why

I had no control when the doctor's told me I would miscarry Weston
and

I had absolutely no control when I was in labor and his heart rate dropped and they thought I was going to lose him without an emergency C-section

But God did

His timing is not only perfect, it is ALWAYS RIGHT ON TIME

He new exactly when he needed to intervene and turn grave circumstances into the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced

I know I cant control Weston not liking scrambled eggs

or falling and bumping his head

or who he does and doesnt like

and of course I cant control if he simply doesnt want to take a nap

or how long they are

I can however control a few things

I can put my faith whole heartedly in God's hands

faith that he will intervene and save me when I am failing miserably at being a mom

or when I cant control people being mean

or relationships that I cant hang on to no matter how hard I try

He can and wants to be my savior

my shoulder to cry on

my naptime chat

my rock

and I can rest in that

I know with all that I am that I am never going to be a perfect mom

I can't promise Weston perfection

it isnt me

I can however promise him I will never give up

on being his mother or on him

I learned that from my Father

So, during this naptime I rest easy

Not on "getting things done"

Instead I watch my sweet boy sleep

I am slowing down and savoring this moment

everything else can wait, but this will be gone before I know it

If you are a momma or are just a woman or man with a heart that is heavy and feel overwhelmed I pray you find your encouragement from the Lord

He is truly the only thing that can give you deep true peace

....

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Matthew 11:28-30

....

"He heals the brokenhearted

and binds up their wounds.

He determines the number of stars

and calls them each by name.

Great is our Lord and mighty in power;

his understanding has no limit.

Psalms 147: 3-5